frustration...

ugh. the world has opened up a can of whoop-@$$ on me. but that's ok.

apart from that, i'm venturing into more uncharted territory for myself: the world of paranormal thrillers. i have an idea that i'm beginning to develop *because i just can't push myself to finish this ONE CHAPTER before i start querying again, and i think it's a mental block of "omgomgomgomgomgomgomgomgomg, i'm scared."* so yeah. i'm subconsciously holding myself back. at any rate, i feel totally nuts thanks to the required research for the new idea, which would be serial killers... i'm looking for a distinct pattern. so i'm making myself play detective, and the internet can only take me so far...

i'm making myself finish chapter 9 before i venture out into the world of new ideas. lately i've been so frustrated with non-writing things, that it's sucked the joy out of writing. i'm pushing my pen to the end, a forced labor of love, i guess. and then i'm going to hit querying again. i'm on the verge of a great letter, so...yee haw. right now, though, i just want to go to sleep and have things be right when i wake up... ugh.

so, i say to you that if you know anyone who sells avon in the cincinnati, oh area, please warn them of marybryan77@yahoo.com or any variation of that email address. this is a scam artist who will ask for products, send you way too much for them (usually $1350) and then ask you to send the remainder back. the check is NO GOOD. please pass this on if you can. because this "lady" needs to be caught.

i need the adam walsh of catching scam artists to get on this case...

bit the bullet...

and as i expected, mr bransford was a no-go (but he's still awesome). i'm actually glad to have that first rejection out of the way. i'm not having a crisis *yet* and i'm going to just keep working and doing my thing and trying to improve myself and my product. because...well, i'm okay with rejection, but i'm not going to settle for being rejected over and over again. i wrote something that actually has promise, and i know that i need to polish up the marketing tools, i.e. the query. so i'm going to just force it down people's throats, haha. OK, i'm not. but i'm going to try resubmitting to query shark and to evil editor. and revisiting forums and whatnot. i'm going to do whatever it takes to get noticed. the people in my head deserve a concentrated effort, even if it doesn't pay off. i'd rather fail knowing i tried everything than fail because i didn't try enough.

in other news, i'm really starting to love this AVON thing. i'm putting ideas together for some raffles and parties and anything else i can think of short of going door-to-door. *ding dong! avon lady!* but yeah. i just need a boatload more money before i can really get this off the ground. avon has way too much awesome stuff that i want/need to try so i can sell it effectively. not gonna try everything, but i want to have a good, solid understanding of what this stuff does. thankfully, my mom and sister are great guinea pigs.

but i was thinking about putting a bridal care package together, maybe working with some of the area bridal stores. i have a bunch of stuff i'd love to include in it, like bubble bath, perfume, some makeup, nail polish, a footcare set, and a few other goodies. the only thing is that i don't know how to work it so far. maybe a raffle? IDK. i've done enough fundraising in my life to know that things like this would be good, but getting it organized and figuring out how to do it is a little tough. if they'd be willing, i'd just donate it to get my name out there (gotta spend money to make money, right?), and that way i could write it off my taxes. i know that the bridal store my sis went to has a pretty solid clientele.

i also wanted to put together something for father's day. we don't have a lot by way of skin products (which is lame, IMHO), but we have a buttload of fragrances. maybe something like that? i don't have much time to plan this. it's already wedding season and father's day is just around the corner. grr, argh.

all right. off to go plan and scheme. once again, if you want to buy some avon off me, the website is www.youravon.com/cpeace

peace out.

PEEPS! IMPORTANT STUFF!

OK, so we all know how well the authoring thing is going for me right now (i SWEAR, i'm gonna start querying! i have 10 days left! *crap, i have 10 days left...*), and since hotels don't pay a whole lot, i have decided to sell AVON. oh yeah, i'm THAT chick now. BUT, in addition to being able to shop for your favorite AVON products via my AVON website, this means that i can actually start doing super-cool stuff like giveaways. cause i can write that off on my taxes! ;-)

but seriously, there are a lot of super people who have been helping me out on here and i'd like to repay you. so yeah. let me be your beauty guru. with my extensive AVON knowledge.